he knew i wouldn't walk if you were still around
he know me better than i knew myself.

therefore, i will keep my trust in Him who has my good at heart.

i keep waiting for it to feel better...
so ill keep waiting.

my heart no longer resides here.
my heart flew away.

whirlwinds

whirlwind: a confused rush.

Job 38:1. Then the Lord answered Job out of the whirlwind and says: "Who is this that darkens my counsel by words without knowledge?".

This year has been a whirlwind of sorts. It has brought much destruction. I guess I should have been more careful singing Jimmy Needham's song "Hurricane":
I am yours and you are mine. You know far better than I.
And if destruction's what I need. Then I'll recieve it Lord from thee.

Destruction of idols, securities, and pleasantries has taken place within the past year. Anything I found comfort in outside of God himself has been torn away. Two romantic relationships, two close friendships, a community that I loved.

But throughout this year, in the midst of all the chaos and brokenness, I have been able to see God caring for me. Through other friends caring for me, through a pastor's words, through work interactions and trainings. Each church service I have been to lately has seemed to hit right at the ache.

God speaks through the whirlwind. Who am I to ask why he chooses that method?

ouch.

breathing hurts.

i want a hippopotomous for christmas.

Mom says the hippo would eat me up, but thenTeacher says a hippo is a vegeterian

grace

your grace is sufficient for me.....

his strength is made perfect when i am weak.....

all that i cling to i lay at your feet.....

your grace is sufficient for me.....